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Saturday, February 24, 2007

okay, so  i'm really frustrated, so this is going to be venting for me, but this is what i need to do!  i dont' care about grammer about anything else...i just need to write something down and maybe something will come out of this, maybe God will use this because i am a faithful servant and i try my hardest to do as he calls me to do and so i try and i write these updates, all for people to read and to learn and grow and so i write this one for me.  i need to express what i am feeling and need to get it out in the open.  i know that the people who read this aren't the people i am going to mention in it, or who i will be referring to, but maybe this will apply to someones life, to someone else's situation and maybe someone can apply a tiny section of this to their life, and if not...it serves me so either way, the glory is to God, our Creator and sustainer of life!!!  okay, so i just got off the phone with my best friend and she has been made fun of because she likes to spend all her time with me.  first off.....why?  why is it such a big deal that she has found a great friend and i too have found someone wonderful and we like to spend our time together?  why is it bad that we like to surround ourself with each other and be in one another's presence?  God has created her, and God has created me, and i do believe that God created her and me to be together in this humanly world.  so then again...why is it a big deal she likes to spend time with me?  why is it a big deal i love to spend time with her?  it is completely obsurd that so called 'friends' would make fun of her because she misses me.  so what if it is only for a couple of hours.  i miss her just as much!  i am her best friend, i am who she confides in, she is my best friend, she is who i confide in!  why again...why?  why such a big deal that she likes to spend time with me?  why since i came home, and she woulda like to came home to spend time with our families and spend time with our church family...why is it a big deal?  we like home.  we love our church family!  we love it here.  we love to surround ourself with the wonderful loving people who i can actually call my FRIENDS...not my 'friends,' but what i believe to be my brothers and sisters who would help my carry my cross anytime i felt the burden too heavey for me!  i have those sort of people here, and i honestly feel as if at school i have one and she has one, and we are tormented and picked on all the time for spending our time together.  so once again, i ask again...WHY?  why is it a big deal that i carry her cross for her when she needs help, and why is it a big deal when i turn to her when the devil pricks at me a little too much?  why?  she is me and i am her, we are one, and we keep accountable.  i love her and i know i can count on her for anything.  i know she loves me and she can count on me for anything.  we love God and nothing else is better in this world than finding a person who loves God just as much as you do and are able to celebrate that together and to help one another please our maker.  my heart breaks for those 'friends' that i mentioned before who don't know that kind of relationship we have.  whether jealous because they don't have it or blinded by evil, my heart breaks.  at first i was angry and resentful towards them, but no, i weep for them......if only people were able to experience the love of Jesus through such a close friend............i hope everyone finds that love


Thursday, February 01, 2007

So time for a new update for me.  Something that really bothers me and something that I didn't really expect to be a problem that I would hear here at school is what this post will be about.  That is the issue of cussing.  I hear people on my floor, I hear my RA, I hear my roomate, I hear students across the entire campus, even in class.  The people that cuss and I inquire about their reasoning for cussing is that there are bigger issues.  There are bigger problems than them cussing.  They state that when they cuss, people worry more about what they said because of the cuss word and its negative conotation.  People are more worried about foul language than they are about starving children or poverty in the world.  Last night I had a discussion with my RA and he said that Christians today are basing their faith around "you're not supposed to cuss, you're not supposed to drink, you're not supposed to have sex, so they don't."  They don't claim their faith off of what they believe, they claim their faith simply because they are told not too it.  But then how can they say that it's okay to cuss because people make it a bad associtation?  Just because it's a bad word because of the conotation that American's put behind it, its not a bad word?  What the crap?  How do they say that?  Lets all take out our highlighters and highlight some part of scripture and leave the others unhighlighted.  This issue is way more important than that issue so I am going to use this language becuase in America it is cool and since there are bigger issues like poverty, then I am going to choose to do the lesser and cuss.  Okay, I'm sorry, this really frustrates me.  First off, there is no greater sin than another sin.  Just because turning our backs to starving children, cussing isn't any less of a sin than not helping our bothers or sisters.  One sin is just as accountable as any other sin.  Second if we as Christians hold the Bible as sacred text and believe it to be one of the foundations that we base our faith off of, how do we disregaurd all text that speak of cleansing our mouths of foul language?  Just because people get more upset over your language doesn't give you the right to use it and to keep frustrating people when you shouldn't give a crap what the people think of your language, rather you should be worried aobut glorifying God, and there is not way that curse words glorify God.  Stop highlighting certain part of the Bible and ignoreing other parts.  You might as well get out some scissors and cut and paste your own version of your bible.  Why not grow up, realize what God has given us as a great tool for direction in our lives and simply do what it says.  Give it up to God instead of worrying that people get upset about the language.

"Obscene stores, foolish talk, and coarse jokes--these are not for you.  Instead, let there be thankfulness to God."
      --Ephesians 5:4


Saturday, January 20, 2007

Okay, so if this update offends you, then I have done my job.  It is not to upset you to the point where you want to hate me, but I want to pick at your brains to see if you are truely living your life as that of Jesus would.  So tonight was the freshman formal dance.  All the freshman had the formal and then afterward there was free bowling at East Side Lanes, so since most of my friends are predominitly freshman, Katie and I decided to meet them up at East Side after the dance to go bowling with them since it was free.  And to be completely honest, I was embarrassed of my fellow collegiate students.  Simply in their behaviors and their actions and their choice of clothing.  I am all about having fun.  I love to have fun.  Love to humiliate ourselves in order to bring laughs to others around me.  Love to have some good, clean, Christian fun, but when it comes to dances...I honestly don't see any GOOD, CLEAN, or CHRISTIAN fun.  First off, look at the way you dress yourselves.  Now this part is geared mostly towards the ladies becuase this is who I see the most flaw in.  How do you dress in such revealing clothing and disgrace yourself?  Wear shirts, or half shirts, that reveal practically all of your chest.  I don't understand how that honors Christ.  The reason we are created is to praise God and make him glorious.  We are to honor God in all we do, and how is wearing revealing clothing pleasing to God at all?  Next, how is dancing at all glorious and all honoring our Creator?  Now I know that there is some forms of dancing where the dancing is not provocative, but the type of dancing I saw tonight between my fellow students was definitly not that kind.  How can grinding yourself onto another person be anything like what Jesus would have done?  If Jesus were to be alive today, do you honestly think he would go to a dance and grind hisself all over a girl?  I think not.  And then thirdly, how do we as Christians condition ourselves to say that these actions are appropriate.  Times have changed, and its hard to act the way Christ wants us to because no one else is.  I am ashamed to say that I call some of these people my friends.  I honestly am.  I know thats mean, and some people may tell me that I am judging them or whatever, but I think not.  How can you read text that we hold sacred, and then go and turn your back on it completely simply to have a little fun.  I'm sorry, but I had to write about this tonight.  This is something that I really have difficulty with that I see here at school, but if you have any questions, just post them and I'll try to answer.  I wrote this kind of fast, so just reply if you wanna, but I'm going to go to bed now.  God Bless all of you!


Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Hey everyone!  I decided that it might be time that I do another update on here since it has been a pretty long while since my last update.  I'm not sure if anyone will understand this without reading the materials that I have been reading for my Theology class, but I figured that I could write about it anyways, plus I am going to try and put it into laymen's terms to the best of my ability.  Okay, to start off, there are different levels of theologians:  folk, lay, ministrial, professional, and academical.  Think of the five different type of theology on a specturm with folk being normal everyday questions about God, and then academical on the other side of the spectrum as believing nothing at all that cannot be proven. Which if I might add real quick, completely obsurd, but back to my writing.  I was reading two chapters I was assigned to read for Theology where an example used for the proof of folk theology without the willingness to accept ministrial or professional theology and the example was that a undergraduate student wrote a paper about Paul's writings about having child-like faith.  Trust everything in what you feel basically.  The professor passed the students assignment but not with the grade that the student wished to receive.  The professor said that the student needed to return to the original language to understand exactly what the author was trying to say, which I don't discredit, if someone is researching a section of scripture to examine it exegetically, then yes, you should do so, but the professor discredited the students knowledge on the scripture becuase the student used his own understandings of Paul's writings.  So I have at least two points that I want to make clear in this and who knows, maybe more will come up?  But firstly, the professor said that there is a human error in translating the scriptures from Greek to English, which yes, I know happens, but if someone is going to discredit the human error is translating the texts from Greek to English, who is to say that the original text is correct?  Unless God himself proof read every text in the original cannonization.  If we are going to present the case that human error occurs in the translation from Greek to English, then lets admit the humanness in writing the scriptures in the first place.  Don't disregaurd someone's thoughts and believes on a piece of scripture.  I think everyone forgets about the Holy Spirit emobodied in all of us.  The scripture is written the way it is for a certain reason.  Whether the word really means what it was supposed to be in the original Greek, how do we know that the original Greek is what God planned for us to read?  How is it that the English version with minor differences is the wrong version?  Both were written by humans, and both were reviewed by humans, so why is the Greek version, supposedly better?  What we read affects us because of the Holy Spirit in us.  If something affects us, whether scripture or lyrics to a song, the Holy Spirit pushes an issue on us to make us feel that way.  Have you ever read a piece of scripture or heard or sang the lyrics to a song and just began to weep?  For me, the words "How can it be that my King would die for me?" completely break me down emotionally.  I can't begin to fathom the love that is there.  I understand it in my humanness, but there is no way I can fathom that much love that God has among all of us.  I just wanted to point out to everyone, that no matter what you are told, whether you are told that you interpret something wrong or you have misread it, if it affected you in a way that made you praise Jesus or that made you act more like Him, then I say that you obviously read it correctly becuase that is obviously the way God wanted you to read it because he wanted you to react to that certain piece of scripture that way by the empowerment of the Holy Spirit.  I just hope that this challenges you not to be turned off by theology, because in some since, we all are theologians.  Take theology and grasp the opportunity to look into your scripture and understand it more clearly and be able to apply that to your life to live how God has called you to live your life.  I love you all and God Bless all of you!


Sunday, December 10, 2006

Hello everybody!  This is going to be my first, and possibly my last update, where I use proper grammer, spelling, and punctuation because of my lovely girlfriend's mother, Lori Hundt.  This one is for you Lori.  I hope that you enjoy reading this and I hope it flows much better for you as well.  Well, where to begin?  I couldn't help but notice that on my last update, no one left me any comments.  Normally this wouldn't bother me, but seems how after all my updates leading up to this one, I've received numerous comments after each posting, and to not receive any on the last one kind of upset me.  It shouldn't, and I don't know why it bothers me, but it does.  Lori told me that I can't expect everyone to be perfect, especially pastors, and young adults.  They are in the process of growing, and the huge factor that disrupts the whole "Perfect" thing is that they are HUMAN!  I believe that's a personal struggle that I deal with a lot in my journey.  I always try to what is 'perfect.'  I always try to do the impossible and be Jesus, but geez, that will never happen.  I know I should try my hardest to accomplish that to please God, but I can't expect people to be right all the time, and to treat others like they would like to be treated all the time.  Everyone is human, everyone makes mistakes, everyone falls short of the glory of God.  That's it bluntly.  We will never be perfect ourselves, and neither will anyone else, so don't judge, don't be a hypocrit, just look at people at see Christ in them.  When you look at someone, remember the good things in that person, the Christ-like things you see in them, and praise those aspects and pray for the flaws that you see in them to help them in their persuit of pleasing our God.  So that is all that I am going to write about that stuff because I could keep going on and that's not what I was going to write about when I first sat down tonight, or rather, this morning.  I'm going to write about what I would feel like a lot of people would be struggling with this time of the year.  I find myself very short tempered lately.  I get upset pretty easily and I'm not quite sure why.  Katie and I went to Wal*Mart tonight to get a two liter of pop and upon arrival to the parking lot, I noticed an overwhelming abundance of cars in the parking lot and I knew that we would have to walk far to the doors just to get a pop.  In my head, as soon as I saw the cars, I got upset and I started thinking to myself thoughts like:  "What the crap?" "Why so many cars"  "I hate holiday shopping"  All these negative thoughts simply because of a little extra distance that I would have to endure to get a pop.  75 more feet to walk meant death to me today and I don't understand why we have that mentallity as humans.  Why can't we be thankful for what we do have?  Be thankful that we have a vehicle to get around, thankful that we have gas to put in the car, no matter of the price because other places it costs more.  Be thankful that we have the extra money to buy a pop.  Every year I almost regret Christmas, and that is completely insane from a Christian aspect.  This is my holiday.  My time to celebrate my Savior's birthday.  I just know that although Christmas time brings out a lot of good in people, I also hear stories about how it has broughten out a lot of evil in people.  Stories about people being beaten up in order to get a Barbie for their child.  People gettin trampled when store doors open.  Everywhere I look, I see Christmas lights.  What in this world is better than Christmas lights?  I think if everyone would just stop and look at Christmas lights for one minute and forget about the hustle and bustle of gettin presents for everyone and just slow down, that this holiday would be so much better.  Wasn't it a light that led everyone to see Jesus anyways?  One star in the sky that captured attention to signify that our Lord and Savior was born in a manger.  If we would just stop and look at the lights and remember what this season is all about, take a minute and step back to realize that it is not about the latest gadget or the newest trend, but about honoring and glorifying the one who came and took our burdens and died for our sins.  The one who took all our worries becuase he loved us and he wanted our problems to be nailed to the cross so he could bare our sins to save us for eternal life.  So next time you see those beautiful lights and decorations, think about what it would have been like to see just one light in the sky and know that the Messiah was born and that everything would be fine and that our God loves us so much he sent his Son to die for us, so that we could live forever in Heaven with Him.

I love you all and I hope this helps you with this season.

*Hope you liked it better like this Lori*



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